The past year and a half have been interesting as I have gone through the change of life.
NO, not that change! Bring your mind back!
When my son was born in 2009, life was turned upside down. I had to throw out a lot of what I thought to be true about dealing with children and admit that I may not know everything. UGH! All the tricks I had in my bag were useless, I went on a Mama Bear hunt to find what work and I felt like I came up short over and over, which lead to feeling useless.
Working with children was the definition of me, it was what I was good at, what people knew me for. Here I was the expert in dealing with children that others couldn’t, children with behavioral issues, children with special needs I was the one everyone came too.
AND I couldn’t control or deal with my own son, what a fraud!
Years went by with this feeling taking over my body. Other people’s children I could handle but my own child that I love and adored, made me crazy? How can this be?
I entered into the self-development community and started really working on myself. I started to acknowledge patterns in my own behaviors and I decided to choose to live my life differently. At the same time, parts of this process made me feel like the worst mom in the world. Like I was a terrible person that should never be around children, let alone an expert in the field.
I struggled over and over with this until I completely shut down my business, focusing only on me. I shut down the entire child part of my life. Pretending I never had gotten into working with children.
Who was I? What is it I’m really good at? What did I love and what was I really passionate about. I went through a few different things and jobs realizing that I am good at business, organization and pushing people past their fears to feel the freedom. Of course I was good at these things!
I did this with the children all the time. It’slike second nature to me to guide and teach someone behavior modifications.
I was fabulous at planning events and making sure everything is covered. These are all things I used to do with 30/40 7 year olds. Completing these things with adults is much easier. Not to mention our family gatherings are about 40 people and I would feed them and have activities scheduled, all out of my home.
These things are who I am.
I have spent the past few months in meditation and the realization that teaching parents and educators is where I am supposed to be.
I have always been about Simplifying life!
Bringing Families Back 2 Basics!
You will start to notice things turning around. I will no longer be running from my expertise. One of the things I learned through this process is that I have had years of experience and success stories. I have had 4 years with my son that is a mirror to all the children I am excellent with. I learned how the parents of THESE children feel and what they are going through.
I am so happy and grateful that I was given my son. Through him I have learned how other parents feel. I learn that no 2 children are the same. I learned that there are so many additional things within our world that we can utilize to help our children instead of drugs!
Most importantly, I learned my own value and not to allow someone else to take that away from me. I am committed to serving families and children. I am committed to teaching families, children and educators and I am committed to making a difference in the educational structure of our country!